Last night I kept thinking about who I
really am, aside from the color nail polish I choose, or what kinds of clothes
I decide to wear, or how I do my hair. It all sounds shallow, but us women know
the pressures of being as beautiful as other women. Even though I’m not high maintenance,
I still feel like maybe I try too hard. Who would I be if it was just my family
and I in the woods?
I would definitely be weirder, because I
wouldn’t care as much what others thought of me. My voice would be stronger,
more affirmative in my decisions. I’d feel 100% beautiful, because I wouldn’t
have photos surrounding me of beautiful models with long blonde hair who have “perfect”
abs and legs. I would feel sufficient. I’d be happier with my body, my face, my
choices, my actions and reactions.
I want to be that girl. I want to be me
100%. I don’t want all these photos and ideas of who I should be. I don’t want
to follow a “style” that changes every 6 months. I don’t want to be labeled or
categorized or compared.
So you know what? I won’t. I will be free
from my fears of thoughts of others. From now on I will strive to be me 100% of
the time. And even though many of us girls think we already are, we aren’t.
Imagine yourself without the pressures of society. It’s freeing, isn’t it?
