This Past Week I...

With the weather going from the mid 50's straight to low 90's within a week, it feels as though our summer has arrived a wee bit early. No complaints here, minus the fact we don't have an air conditioner. Oi Vei.

My one week absence on my blog is contributed to two things. One: I haven't been working out. Two: I have been depressed. I'd say that I'm feeling more depressed than usual, but I'm finding myself having that thought more often than not. Needless to say, I'm pretty dang depressed over here.

With my lower than low mood, my eating habits have been quite shameful. For a little over a week now, I have been binge eating. This makes me feel more depressed and turning to food once again to bury the guilt of over eating. What a nasty cycle. My husband and I have teamed up to stop this habit. Today is the first day in over a week that I don't feel sickeningly full. Thank you, God.

Because of my fall backs, I have decided to re-start phase 3 of P90X. The first week went okay, but this week (week 10) was a dud. With summer practically here and our low budget, I need to be able to fit into my summer clothes, or I will spend an entire season sucking in my stomach and pulling down the legs of my shorts just to be some-what comfortable.

In the midst of my bloated and depressed self, my friend, Danielle, and I took Toby on his first hike to Whiskeytown Falls. Honestly, I thought that because of P90X that the steep hike would be easier. Ha! Even though is was my 4th time doing this hike, it was still quite a challenge. Danielle and I huffed and puffed the entire way up, following behind my little dog who ran up the entire way. As a result of our 2 hour hike, Toby became our newest inspiration, and we have dubbed ourselves "Sweat Sisters".

Today I made a promise to myself that I will not step on the scale until June 1st. What I really want is to never step on a scale again, but the only way for me to succeed is baby steps.

It's refreshing to be able to be honest on my blog about my pitfalls. I'm only human, and so are you. All we can do is our very best, and not hold ourselves to some ridiculous standard that we know we might never achieve. That would only be a suicide mission. And over here in the real world, we want to be able to say "mission accomplished".

P.S. Happy 50th blog post, Deb's Fitness Journey!