Vlog Monday #8

If you are a new member of my blog, this video recap will bring you up to date :)

February & March Workouts

March doesn't look nearly as pretty as February. But as I have mentioned before, I need to keep in mind that I used to not workout at all! And working out on an average of every other day is much better than not working out at all.

Below you'll see a "key" that I have created for those interested in knowing which workouts I have done on each day. My 60 day weigh-in is in 3 days. You may have noticed that I have not once mentioned how much I actually weigh. Even though my weigh-in days are called just that, it's really the inches lost that I consider victories. I feel that on my journey towards a healthy body, that pounds are mostly irrelevant.

P90X 30 Day Weigh-In

Today was the day I have been fearing all week. Because I missed three days in a row of working out, I was afraid it would affect my weigh-in. In all honesty, I wasn't expecting my body to change at all. After I took my photos, I was a little shocked. Change is so gradual you don't feel it until you take a step back and look at the whole picture. I contemplated whether or not to post this photo. This is called Deb's Fitness Journey, not Deb's Fitness Results where I only show you my body when I'm all done. This is the real deal.
So here it is, my 30 day P90X weigh-in. It's almost embarrassing, but I told myself I'd share the nitty gritty throughout this journey.. I wish I could blame Seroquel XR for making me gain so much weight, but before I began that medication my emotional eating was already out of control.

 

Weird right? Maybe it's only weird to me. Who sees this kind of perspective of their body every day? The mirror behind my bedroom door sure didn't show me this. All I did was push myself through every exercise. In NO way was this a simple challenge. The last month has been one of the hardest 30 days I've faced. On top of dragging myself out of bed, I had to push myself to move. I hate moving. My bed was my best friend, but now I'm not so sure any more. More and more am I realizing it's my enemy. The thought of staying in it all day feels so right, but actually being in it feels so wrong.

I'm not even sure why I decided to do P90X. Turbo Jam works perfectly fine. Maybe I figured if I'm going to torture myself, I might as well go all out. Well... this sure is an all out torture, but the best one EVER.

Wait... WHAT?!

You mean I can have before & during photos, too??? You mean like all the ones you see and think to yourself "ahh that's just photoshopped" and "they must have energy coming out of their ears"?? YES I CAN! And no I hardly have any energy, just sheer will power. That's 12 DAYS BABY! That's not even 2 weeks! 5.1 inches and 6.8 lbs! Holy smokes, Batman! I'm awesome!
Ok, I'm not as depressed as my last blog entry :)

Starting NOW

Yes. For real. It's 11pm and I'm going to work out. I still have not worked out since I posted the 4 minute workout video. It has to start sometime. I need to become serious with myself. No more puting it off. This summer I want to look in the mirror while wearing my bikini and blurt out.... "DAMN." Turbo Jam, here I come. My next 40 minutes are completely yours.

UPDATE:
Technically it's now Sunday. I have completed Turbo Sculpt for the first time in 5 years. It feels SO good. Although I have lost a lot of muscle while battling my depression for the past 6 years, I'm a lot stronger than I realized. I nearly began to cry after I finished my workout. Why have I been so scared to do Turbo Sculpt? It may be the failure of not completing it. I only ever get 10 minutes into it before I give up. NOT today. NOT anymore. Thank you God for my surge of energy. I now believe in myself once again.

Feel free to track my progress or become a workout buddy of mine here on Team Beachbody. You don't need to own or use any of their programs to join either :)