Here is a vlog from yesterday updating my readers on where I'm at in my P90X program.
Happy hump day everyone :)
Showing posts with label weight. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weight. Show all posts
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Monday, February 6, 2012
Change Is Happening!
The only difference I have felt in the way I looked from two weeks ago is that my stomach is less bloated. I was going to wait until the day before my birthday to weigh myself again, but I just couldn't help it. This morning I weighed myself and I am 5.2 pounds lighter. I was so ecstatic that I decided to measure my body while I was at it. What was more exciting than that 5.2 pounds, is the 4.1 inches that I have burned off all over my body. Wow. It's really happening! Change really can happen to my body. I never thought it could.
Later this afternoon I start P90X, and if Chalene has helped me burn off that much in one week, then I can't wait to see what Tony helps me do.
Later this afternoon I start P90X, and if Chalene has helped me burn off that much in one week, then I can't wait to see what Tony helps me do.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Numbers
Guess what??? My mind and body are awake, and it's before 11am. That is rare. No matter how early or late I go to bed, my body always needs at least 12 hours of sleep. It's an effect depression has on me. Lexapro has been in my system for over a year now, and Seroquel XR for just over two months. Energy always feels so out of my reach, even with taking these two medications. And even though I feel wide awake right now, my body stills feels heavy with fatigue.
That is what a good day for my body feels like. I have just taken the last gulp of my Alkalizing Fuel/Citrucel concoction. It has been 9 days now of adding these to my diet. It seems to help immediately after taking it, but so far I'm not seeing it as an all day solution. I do plan to finish the bottle though, and maybe even skip a day at some point to see if I feel worse.
Another good thing about today, is that my stomach doesn't feel so swollen and heavy like it has been. I really want to weigh myself to see if I lost any weight, but I promised myself that I won't weigh my body until the day before my birthday (February 9th). The numbers I see on the scale are ruining me. My emotions become so wrapped up in the 3 digit number that lights up on our scale. I can't keep doing that to myself. So far I haven't weighed myself since the 23rd, which has been a week free of torcher.
Today I plan to take my sweet Toby for another walk. I'm hoping my mom will go with me. It's only been a few days since I have seen her, but I miss her already. My stomach is aching badly from yesterday's Ab Jam. It's a very missed feeling that I welcome back with wide open arms. Hopefully this momentum of working out keeps going, because it might be the only way to give my body the extra boost of energy it so desperately needs every day.
That is what a good day for my body feels like. I have just taken the last gulp of my Alkalizing Fuel/Citrucel concoction. It has been 9 days now of adding these to my diet. It seems to help immediately after taking it, but so far I'm not seeing it as an all day solution. I do plan to finish the bottle though, and maybe even skip a day at some point to see if I feel worse.
Another good thing about today, is that my stomach doesn't feel so swollen and heavy like it has been. I really want to weigh myself to see if I lost any weight, but I promised myself that I won't weigh my body until the day before my birthday (February 9th). The numbers I see on the scale are ruining me. My emotions become so wrapped up in the 3 digit number that lights up on our scale. I can't keep doing that to myself. So far I haven't weighed myself since the 23rd, which has been a week free of torcher.
Today I plan to take my sweet Toby for another walk. I'm hoping my mom will go with me. It's only been a few days since I have seen her, but I miss her already. My stomach is aching badly from yesterday's Ab Jam. It's a very missed feeling that I welcome back with wide open arms. Hopefully this momentum of working out keeps going, because it might be the only way to give my body the extra boost of energy it so desperately needs every day.
Monday, January 23, 2012
Battles
On my way home from the post office this afternoon, I decided to stop at Safeway to grab some Ben and Jerry's ice cream. The oatmeal cookie one. The one that makes you salivate just thinking about it. The one that takes away your sorrow for just a while. It sounded so good, and the grocery store was just across the street from where I had purchased stamps (which, by the way, have gone up an entire penny today). A battle with myself began as I approached the traffic light. Go straight and head home with the victory of not giving in to sweet temptation? Or turn left and tell myself that I will start eating healthy tomorrow?
I turned left.
As I was driving through the parking lot, my eyes caught sight of a sign that read "Total Nutrition" right next to Safeway. For about a month now, I have been contemplating buying "diet" pills, or appetite suppressants. My anti-depressants have made me gain 8 pounds. My doctor says it's a side affect of Seroquel XR, because it makes you crave carbs. But my smarts always kick in and tell me how stupid of an idea diet pills are. The entire foundation of me not working out is energy, and my vitamin B pills just don't do their job. I found a parking spot and turned off the car. I sat there, in the driver's seat for a few seconds. Safeway? Or this mysterious "get muscles here" store? I craved the sweet victory much more than the temporary safety net of Ben and Jerry's, so I walked in the direction of the muscle store.
"Who am I going to run into? What if it's a beautiful skinny chick at the counter who judges me? Are there going to be a bunch of buff guys in there?"
Honestly, I was terrified. So much that my palms began to sweat in the midst of our freezing January. As I walked into the tiny store. Everything seemed black. There might have even been purple lights? I'm not sure. There was a buff guy behind the counter talking to a skinny woman who had just purchased alkaline water. Three gallons to be exact. They chatted for another minute or so until the woman left. He then turned to me. "What brings you in today?" asked the buff man. It was obvious I have never been in there before, or any other nutrition store. There I was, in an over-sized sweatshirt, jeans and tennies, with my uncontrollably curly locks tied back in a bun and wearing black-rimmed glasses. "I need energy."
After what seemed like 10 minutes of him explaining how the body and energy function together using a hundred metaphors, he showed me a powder called Alkalinity Fuel. Yum. It dented my wallet $37. While we were talking, another buffy walked in and sat down, waiting for buffy #1 so he can buy what I'm assuming is a truck load of muscle powder. Buffy #2 told me to give it at least a week, and then I'll want to take it every morning because I will love the amount of energy I get. I hope these guys are right. As I was leaving, I told them I'd be back in a month with a verdict. It better be a good one.
When will I tell my husband? We don't exactly have a lot of money, especially not for extras. Maybe when he notices that I have energy. That way he won't be so mad when he sees the positive effect is has on me. Hopefully.
I turned left.
As I was driving through the parking lot, my eyes caught sight of a sign that read "Total Nutrition" right next to Safeway. For about a month now, I have been contemplating buying "diet" pills, or appetite suppressants. My anti-depressants have made me gain 8 pounds. My doctor says it's a side affect of Seroquel XR, because it makes you crave carbs. But my smarts always kick in and tell me how stupid of an idea diet pills are. The entire foundation of me not working out is energy, and my vitamin B pills just don't do their job. I found a parking spot and turned off the car. I sat there, in the driver's seat for a few seconds. Safeway? Or this mysterious "get muscles here" store? I craved the sweet victory much more than the temporary safety net of Ben and Jerry's, so I walked in the direction of the muscle store.
"Who am I going to run into? What if it's a beautiful skinny chick at the counter who judges me? Are there going to be a bunch of buff guys in there?"
Honestly, I was terrified. So much that my palms began to sweat in the midst of our freezing January. As I walked into the tiny store. Everything seemed black. There might have even been purple lights? I'm not sure. There was a buff guy behind the counter talking to a skinny woman who had just purchased alkaline water. Three gallons to be exact. They chatted for another minute or so until the woman left. He then turned to me. "What brings you in today?" asked the buff man. It was obvious I have never been in there before, or any other nutrition store. There I was, in an over-sized sweatshirt, jeans and tennies, with my uncontrollably curly locks tied back in a bun and wearing black-rimmed glasses. "I need energy."
After what seemed like 10 minutes of him explaining how the body and energy function together using a hundred metaphors, he showed me a powder called Alkalinity Fuel. Yum. It dented my wallet $37. While we were talking, another buffy walked in and sat down, waiting for buffy #1 so he can buy what I'm assuming is a truck load of muscle powder. Buffy #2 told me to give it at least a week, and then I'll want to take it every morning because I will love the amount of energy I get. I hope these guys are right. As I was leaving, I told them I'd be back in a month with a verdict. It better be a good one.
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| Alkalinity Fuel by Nutracore Nutrition |
When will I tell my husband? We don't exactly have a lot of money, especially not for extras. Maybe when he notices that I have energy. That way he won't be so mad when he sees the positive effect is has on me. Hopefully.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Oh Boy
I must admit, that I have not worked out since my last blog entry. My new anti-d's have a nasty side effect of weight gain, so I'm up 8 pounds. Blow to my confidence. In addition, I have turned to desserts to make me feel better. Then, when I look at the empty cup of ice cream, or the cookie crumbs left on my plate, my emotions take an even steeper turn. After only two weeks, I summoned the courage to step on the scale. The number makes sense. My pants hurt to wear, and I can no longer suck in my gut. This is the heaviest I have ever been.
This morning, however, I realized that I CAN get back on track to eating healthy. My frozen blueberries and grapes were a wonderful way to wake up. I forgot how delicious they are, and how good they make me feel. Struggling with clinical depression and lack of energy while trying to exercise is like trying to mix oil and water. But I can do this. There are too many stories of people who were actually obese lose all their extra weight. My journey isn't as long as theirs. I can't give up. I won't give up.
This morning, however, I realized that I CAN get back on track to eating healthy. My frozen blueberries and grapes were a wonderful way to wake up. I forgot how delicious they are, and how good they make me feel. Struggling with clinical depression and lack of energy while trying to exercise is like trying to mix oil and water. But I can do this. There are too many stories of people who were actually obese lose all their extra weight. My journey isn't as long as theirs. I can't give up. I won't give up.
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